i loved this movie

TEARZZZZ

I seriously cannot wait until November 5th.

I'VE LIKED YOU FOR A THOUSAND YEARS, A THOUSAND YEARS

i'm horrible at keeping up with this blog!

in the meantime, enjoy this fantastic recreation of the 'scott pilgrim vs the world' trailer using panels from the graphic novels. sooo amazing.

and the movie is fucking fantastic as well.

I can't just leave an emo post like that on the top

Seriously.

It's 2:30 am.

I am listening to Justin Bieber. Seriously, fuck him for having such catchy songs. AHHH. It's pretty shameful how many time's I've listened to his songs.

I have two midterms this week that I've barely studied for and I still need to complete this one page reaction paper for ECN 171. Honestly, one page and I just can't be bothered.

This time last year, I was so excited for the end of the year, summer, and Fall. Now, I'm just dreading it all.

honestly

why do i even try sometimes.

I can't let it out, I still let you in

PARTIAL PHOTO DUMP

hmmmm

I had a strange dream last night.

In my dream I was, for some reason, heading to Turkey (of all places) and had to leave for a flight at 4:15 pm. The whole day I felt like crying and throwing up because I didn't want to leave. Basically it was a repeat of my feelings right before I left for England. My mother and I got on a bus to the airport [I think? Though the bus drove through a museum] and once we were there, I learned my flight had been canceled and immediately felt a sense of relief.

I'm not sure what my dream was trying to tell me.

feeling [reverse] homesickness

It just randomly hit me today. I don't know, maybe it was because I was exhausted, cranky, sleep deprived, whatever...I suddenly got very sad as I was sitting on the bus back from the post office. It didn't help that the bus driver bitched at me for not having my ID card. Rather than sitting on that bus, I wished I was back in my teeny tiny room in flat 1 with the teeny tiny window where I used to be able to hear laughter, drunken talking/singing, at 4am. I miss that. It doesn't sound appealing but I realized that it lulled me to sleep many a night. It's always the little stuff that hits you the hardest I think. Small things that you don't register until it's too late.

Isn't it amazing how hearing a song can instantly take you back to a specific feeling, place, or moment in time? I'm listening to Bat For Lashes again and "Glass" is the opening track. The opening bit brings me back to so many moments of the past three months, particularly traveling. I listened "Two Suns" every single time I rode the bus to London and the times I rode to bus to Paris. Listening to the song takes me back to sitting on a National Express bus, with the English "countryside" or the French suburbs whizzing past. I think I'll always associate this song and album with traveling on the bus. I wish I could end this paragraph nicely but I don't want to get overly cheesy in this already fairly emo post so I'll leave it at that.

Props to Edgar Wright for having it in his top 30 tracks of 2009! Along with "Lizstomania"! ["Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix" was also constantly played on my trips].

I promise to do a photo dump really soon

but for now, here's one that I like

99% structure, 1% head. Just you can see how truly colossal the Colisseum is.

what

I am back in the US. I have been back for two weeks and it's still surreal. Sometimes the past three months seem like a dream.

"Really? Did all of that really happen?"

It's all a blur. I really need to document all of it in this blog before I forget every little detail. I don't want to forget everything. Sometimes I get moments where I really miss Norwich, UEA, Orwell Close. I think this is what they call "reverse homesickness."

Good way of clinging onto the UK: trashy pop music.